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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND VALENTINES DAY!!!!.
This year, Both holidays landed on the same day. Luckily for me Im actually exxpecting New Years more then Valentines becauze for me, I dont have a boyfriend yet and 2nd I dont really care of the holiday hehe. jkjk but anyways Im more for New Years LOL. Anyways yeah.. This Year, New Years will be the Year of the Tiger.  But yeah. But anyawys, this year was kinda different. Not only do I recieve Red Packets but I also have to work on this day... (Bummer) but yeah..anyways right now there like no business much and not much customers here. So yeah. Anyways, today for Chinese New Year decided to spend it alone too. By listening to music at work and playing Tetris from My facebook. hehe. (since nothing else to do) But yeah. Looking back on all my chinese New Year holidays from past..the Most memorabble one is from last year and years before where I spent it with my friends and family. On one of the years, I remeber I went out with my friends to hangout and we all headed to chinatown to hangout. On moment I remeber we all went to the park to hang and chatted there we saw a little baby girl playing in the streets I went over to greet her and smile. Later, we all went to HK Town to eat some 1.00 special meals. It was quite alright and everyone had fun. I esp did too. Later we went to see the parade and had fun as well. But yeah. For family wise, I remeber we went to eat together and all went to get red envelopes from people and to wish them Happy New Years it was quite fun and had an exciting time..Now, this change and life different so time to be a new person filled with a new start, new beginning and new mission/goal hehe.

On that Note, I had decided to not go with my plans. Becauze I rethought alot and found what my mom said to be true beside schooling, I decided to wait till the shops close up and then look for a job then when I return becauze if I look for it now it kinda be no use and since I only have about 2 years exp it hard for me to look for a better job. So yeah. & since the shops closing up soon, might as well work and wait till everything all settled and everyone all settled as well. But yeah. So Now I decided to look up straight ahead and move on. Like us chinese pple say : 'Head to Ship front and the Bridge will automatically be straight ' meaning in other words No matter what happens everything will soon be okay. No matter what the cauze is.

TIme to head back to Work..... :( Until nexttime.
 
 
Current Location: Home.
Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
Current Music: Ice Cream. -DNR
 
 
xxitzmeexx
09 February 2010 @ 08:22 pm
Yet another post again...on my personal life...

SIghs Lately I been so aggrivated and mad at the same time as if I have eaten some 'fire medicine' whenever I get angry or ticked off I just show my facial expression of tiliting my eyebrows to center and give a 'I DONT CARE' stare or talk back. I dont know what going on..work been too much for me and lately too much related to work to complain about...sighs..I just need a time off from work..but seems like I have to wait forever for that.. :( I been so down lately and not just if something wrong just aht business hasnt been good & I been too lazy to work dont even want to move a muscle. Also, when I work with the grandfather as if he giving me pressure too. I hate complaining about the same crappy work and all but everyday I go through the same task almost all day..and when no business people complain and complain..Im thinking if it a big fuss just shut the whole goddamn places down.! Not like it doing good anyways...Worse feels like everyone working just for the crappy part and getting nothing out of it. Yet the grandfather doesnt know which 4 pple are not getting paid (including myself -Not gettin paid yet) but yeah...SIghs I just dont know what to do anymore..I been sitting here thinking and daydreaming and thinking again..it tough and work tough..gosh i just want to get out of this jail place...more I think about it more it kills me....>_< Sighs...I hate doing this and that and hate complaining but what else can I do..nothing for me to do....

On that note, I was talking to a customer of mine earlier, he told me he wanted me to write an article on music and stuff. I decided to help him and so he allowed me. I wanted to write it becauze I felt this was a good chance to work up on my career goal of being a newspaper editor.but come to think of it..will I procrasinate again??..cauze the last time i kept telling pple I knew abotu this and that that when it comes nothing is done...Gosh so hard to decided and make good right decisions...but oh well.. tomorrow another new day...
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Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: Love Shadow : Raymond Lam
 
 
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Sighs..Madd tired and sleepy today. Yet today also Monday the day I have to work in the back with the grandfather to fry the chickens for our meals of General Chicken, Seasome Chicken and OJ Chicken. The worst part is he always rushy at things and I just be like : what your rush??..Sighs I seriously dont want to work with him, He too much of a hassle and plus everyone else doesnt want to work with him either. But what else can I say??....Lately I been so pissed off that w/e comments that offends pple I know or me I just talk back.. as if I dont care. I mean that better then doing something that will get me in trouble right?...Sighs I just dont know..Right now I just finished dinner and I have to say, It so hard to swallow and it hard for it to go down my throat..I wonder is this a sign of something??..something I should be doing but aint??..humph I dont know..And that note, I also keep and hoping that I go back to NY soon. I really need a vacation and need to go see doctor cauze lately my behavior been pretty stressful in my case and i keep getting ticked off inside that not even funny. But yeah..I just dont know what to do..I seriously hope they can sell the small shop so I can get to go abck to NY and find a job of my own and work. (At least shows I can still and will definately be independent and not need any help of family memebers or friends..) Gosh If Only If Only god would give me the right spark so I can think right and more maturely of things rather then something stupid and makeing pple think I look and act dumb..yet I question..What is really wrong with my brain??..Am I just acting immature and stupid or is my brain just not functioning right??..Gosh I wish I can find the answers.. *prays* *sighs* I dont know what else to 'sun' about anymore practically the same old stuff I keep repeating and repeating myself on...but no use..Unless I do something about it then Im free..but until now..everything just remains unanswered and unquestioned.....

Entertainment News [Myself]
I been searching through the web and lately I been more interesting in looking up information of TVXQ I wonder who the one I really admire..but they all look the same Just I been listening to their jap album lately and makes me think alot. Most recent Non played song in my head is "Love On the Ice' - TVXQ  I just love the beginning chorus..hehe. But yeah. I think my idol is ither Hero or Xiah..maybe both :)
Here list of my favorite korean old time bands :
-Fly To The Sky.
-DBSK
-Shinhwa
-TVXQ
-SG Wannabe
-Se7en
-1Tym
-Jang Nara
-Etc?..

*Yells out to River* AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! WHY???!!!!!!! WHY?????!!!! WHY??!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DID I DO WRONG???..........!!!!!!!!
 
 
Current Mood: crappycrappy
Current Music: If TIme Comes - Raymond Lam.
 
 
xxitzmeexx
07 February 2010 @ 11:54 pm
Work today was dumb and boring..had an arguement again with the grandfather and it tough...today I totally forgot to tell one of my customers that purchased a Moo Shi Chicken meal that we ran out of cabbage and I just went on with the order..the grandfather got mad and told me that I should have asked first before making the order..so then a few minutes later, We had to re get the cabbage back from the garbage dump luckily I knew where it was or else. For a moment I felt I had to revoid the meal and refund the money, but good thing the cabbage inside wasnt ruined but only the outside part.. *wipes sweap* moments later, while the grandfather was working and mopping the floors, I thought to myself, How can I be so careless, is it bcauze of the streess I keep thinking about or getting from work that lately there hasnt been any good business lately or is it bcauze im not concentrated enough??. *thinks to self* but w/e. Gosh I just hope the uncle can return cauze I seriously dont want to work with the grandfather no more, I cant take his guts nor can he and all I can do is talk back to him and pretend nothing happend. But at least thats better then giving him the finger and freaking cursing at him. Another thing is that he keeps calling me stupid and dumb and pokes me in the head..Im thinking wtf?..why are you poking me?..I hate pple poking me in the head >< But yeah..Sighs I just want them to close the shop up so badly, everyone feels like there working for crap and just pleasing the customers whereas some workers arent getting paid.. (including myself) but yeah... Sighs if only if only Summer can come, I really want to go back to NY so badly!!! I cant stand working here anymore and it driving me crazy yet for sure Ill be looking for my good buddies again and mainly explode in their faces about my stress and all..prolly they can give me advice..

But yeah..I just dont know what going on with me lately I feel like I have to do something..something...yet lately I been staring at the computer too much that the grandfather tells me that the computer making me dumber and less concentrated..yet I think again..is he really right?..am I really that less concentrated after staring hours at the lappie??..sighs..I dont know anymore like w/o using it like no entertainment for me anymore..but then again..if I keep looking makes me think I cant live with out it.. Gosh Help! I need advice...something that can keep me entertained and more concentrated on work.....

God please help me..
 
 
Current Music: Cries In Distance - JJ Lin.
 
 
xxitzmeexx
06 February 2010 @ 12:13 pm

Woke up a bit early today..and have a cold..after yesterday,,,,right now sitting at work in front of my lappie typing..,lols.

Febuary 5th 2010:

Worst day ever though it ended worse. Most as usual had a early shift as always and toward the middle after lunch I started to feel my stomache hurting I think is becauze of the lunch I ate that made my stomach feel nauxious but I dont know LOL anyways I figured eating Pork Chop with bit ginger chicken wings w/ rice dont match and plus the fattening of the meat too. After a while I drank a bottle of Ice Tea and my stomache all sudden started to feel pain..yet I was wondering why...but then I realized it was the food I ate plus the Icetea and not allowing my stomache to digest the food in time :( I told my friend Xiaoy about it and she got a bit going 'Aww' lols I was so giggling inside that my stomach hurted and ached again..but yeah. Knowing at least someone cares..but it alright..as soon as I got home after work, I starte to put on some of the smelly cream that usual Chinese pple say to put on..so I did..then went to bed and fell asleep..but as I feel asleep I woke up in the middle of the night becauze my stomache ached again and couldnt sleep yet I was tossing and turning..but yeah.. I had to reput on some of the smelly cream again. Aii I hate it everytime I have a stomache ache, I dont feel so good yet my stomach gets grouchy..>< but yeah..anyawys now it alright.

Gosh woke up with a cold again and my nose keeps itchy...Ither dust in my nose or my throat starts to feel ehk...but yeah..as always woke up for work and came in a bit sick. but yeah.  Nothing new to say now but yeah.anyawys here a Drama list. I saw from online TVB News :
Again CONGRATS TO THEM ALL ::

Moses Chan, Raymond Lam, Charmaine Sheh and Nancy Sit attended Singapore's "Starhub TVB TV Awards Ceremony" where 18 awards were given out. Popular series "Moonlight Resonance" took away a total of 7 awards, including the "My Favorite TVB 2009 Drama Award". Raymond and Charmaine both won the "My Favorite TVB Actor / Actress Award" respectively becoming 'TV King and Queen' as well as the "My Favorite TVB Male/Female Character". No wonder Charmaine was happy throughout the evening, and did not avoid rumored boyfriend Moses Chan as she walks the red carpet linking arms with him.

Complete List of Winners at Starhub

Source: tvb.starhub.com

My Favourite TVB Actress: Charmaine Sheh

My Favourite TVB Actor: Raymond Lam

My Favourite TVB Female Character 2009:
Louise Lee (Moonlight Resonance)
Tavia Yeung (Moonlight Resonance)
Susanna Kwan (Moonlight Resonance)
Fala Chen (Moonlight Resonance)
Sonija Kwok (D.I.E.)
Charmaine Sheh (Forensic Heroes II)

My Favourite TVB Male Character 2009:
Raymond Lam (Moonlight Resonance)
Moses Chan (Moonlight Resonance)
Wayne Lai (Rosy Business)
Roger Kwok (D.I.E.)
Steven Ma (The Gentle Crackdown II)

My Favourite TVB Drama 2009: Moonlight Resonance

My Favourite TVB Variety 2009: Be My Guest

My All Time Favourite TVB Female TV Character: Nancy Sit (A Kindred Spirit)

My All Time Favourite TVB Male TV Character: Roger Kwok (Square Pegs)

My All Time Favourite TVB Drama: War And Beauty

Source: On.cc
Translated by: aZnangel @ AsianEU

*Comments : Congrats to Them all.  As always every show was good :) Loved them all :)

 
 
xxitzmeexx
Gosh I feel so happy today..LOL. well maybe a little. But anyways about 3AM today a new baby from the Zhao family has been born and it a BOY!! HAHAH. Yay a new baby boy I can play with :) yet also another little brother added to the family :) (& No bro I didnt forget about you lols) but yeah..anyways The new baby boy name is Issac Zhao. Weighing I think about 7-8lbs. (wow taht huge) :) but yeah. Sighs come to think of it I was about to name my baby son in future Issac as well..but I think I might stick to Ivan. Nice name. Ha come to think of it, me and my friend was chatting online on what names to name our future sons and daughters..and we just threw out any random name. ahahha. I was like : Ivan Issac Zoe or Zita. She like : Kendra (??) Ivan Evan(??) etc (well I dont know what she really wrote but I guess it close enough :) But yeah. As always my mom and her bf was happy even the grandfather :) But congratz to my uncle Ken Zhao , Auntie Shirley Tan , & baby Isabella Zhao for being the new mommy, Daddy and older Sister :) ahahaha. Good luck to them all too :) Gosh cant wait to play with the new baby and baby Isabella as well :) Well Congratz to the Zhao and Tan family :)

Sighs..Maybe one day Ill have my own children..and all will probably be all healthy good looking and smart. Wouldnt want any kids of mine be like me :) Ill teach them to be confident, smart and couragous. LOL. But if I had children, 3 is enough for me. Wouldnt want so much then it be a big hassle :) hehehe. But yeah. Well again just want to congratulate those two families and Since everything starting to get a good turn, I guess Ill just be a normal human girl with work and dreams ahead.
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[My Job Career] : Journalist.

Well yesterday Had a chat with one of my customers. He asked me to write an article for him related to how Musicians save Time and Money. I thought, if I written this article It might be a good chance to start my targeted career and build my way up. But then again I have to go to school for the experience and training..but I guess I might not put as my startup careeer thing but as a helpfull hand to the customer...As always the article he wrote will soon be given to me..and ill soon have a chance to look and decide if I should take this chance to go on with what I planned...but for now it just thinking soon itll be oout.

But yeah.
Anyways..not much to say..but yeah..hopefully everything goes well as I planned.
 
 
Current Music: Moses Chan - Love Bond
 
 
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Today was the most scariest day out of the year. Yet also the most tragic thing as well.
I have come to realized that 2010 year was the most 'blackest' year of the time. Not only did everyone start out unlucky, but alot of tragic things happened to almost everyone that affect parts or whole of the world.
Today was the day I seen something bad happen to my family. That nearly scared us all half to death. Here how it goes, Today in the morning as I was making and order and delivering the order, one of my uncles got into a car accident. Luckily he was okay but i could signal he had some injuries here and there which scared us all half...and plus his car got wreched almost. At first I thought it was one of the passanger seats that got hit, but unluckily it was the driver side. I called my mom to see how everything was doing..and she told me he was okay. which still I got a scared and unlucky feeling something bad was about to happen... An hour later, I recieved a call from my mom again telling me that the mini shop will be closed today due to family emergencey..as I was abot to head out the shop door with the grandfather, she then called again and told me we didnt have to go there. ..but I dont know I was still scared....but thank god it all over now....

Gosh today was just most scaredest part of my life, For first time something bad happend to my family...which was sorta unlucky..not only did anything happen  but I guess something bad was about to come sooner or later which I cant really predict....

But anyways good thing everyone was okay. As long as the person fine, it alright.

But yeah. anyways Im still sitting at work waiting for it to be over, and well things dont come up just often...but I guess anything can happen...

but yeah.
Gosh now I dont know what else to say but yeah. anyawysw ill guess ill stop tillhere since nothing else to post.

till nexttime :)


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xxitzmeexx
26 January 2010 @ 11:16 pm


It about 11pm right now.. I been so tired and it been a long day.. right now Im sitting on my bed layed and thinking..sighs I dont know what been going on..lately I been thinking and when the question 'what will you do in your future..?' 'What Job will yu get or who going hire you' questions keep popping up..I feel like questions I have asked before are starting to reappear in my head..and this makes it worse becauze I been thinking so much on other pple lives that it keeps me to think What about me?..what life should I live..? etc. Sighs it hard So far I feel my life so messed up. I feel like I made so many wrong decisions in the past that I feel regreted that I have made...but I had no choice..esp when comes to makeing decisions to please my family...

I dont know..I think i feel like im overthinking or something but then what else can I do...it about time I think for myself and my future. For example

JOB : THe job I doing now is kinda considered useless beside the fact Im only getting paid so little. and the facct that it a family business..but then what else can i do..I felt to lazy to look for a job in NY so now I been pushed to my mom side..to work for her. But then as I worked I realized this job isnt getting me anywhere no matter what I do I feel sidetracked, nervous, worse less concentrated..ever since I started working in the mini shop downstairs..but yeah.. I dont know waht going on with me..I been to lazy to work, I been less concentrated I dont know what going on around me..things getting me mad etc..but then wat else can I do??...sighs I really hope to look for another job soon but s for now I guess i have to stick to my current one until i saved up enough money for myself...

FAMILY : Gosh Family...the one thing I feel that important to me more then money...i guess. All my life my family been supportive of me and everything they done for me is being made out..all my life I think my family just been pampering me so much that what I feel or decide my brain feels like i have to ask pple permission inorder to do or think of consequences...but I just dont know..I dont want to disappoint my family but as I see I been such a failure..REAL FAILURE : ( I failed as a daughter failed as a sister failed as a granddaughter even failed to live  life the way I was suppoed to. But I dont know..family to me is been important all my life and everytime i keep telling myself 'Family members you dont chose nor pick' but for me i find it getting harder to please my family..even myself...but then family..more i think the more I feel like a failure to them no matter what...I really hope I can one day show my family how nice and successful I am instead of worrying and protecting me...

Myself : As for myself. I really want to do things I feel I should do do things Im willing to without a doubt..but one thing i feel like im missing and it is CONFIDENCE. I keep thinking doubtly of myself, I try to please others then myself I keep thinking negatively..all my life I been so lost and left out. No matter what I keep thiniing Im that girl left in the corner all alone noone to talk to nor pple understanding..but then wat else can I do...??..my life already screwed up halfly and I dont want to keep making the same  mistakes as I did in the past...I want to change I want to be more confident..Please God Please let me have a open road for me..It about time for me to go on my own..

^But yeah. All I want is a decent life..and making right decisions for myself it about time I step out into the light and face reality becauze I know w/e Im doing now is not worth it nor useful to me...


 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Music: End it for all -Chilam & Myolie Wu.
 
 
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Well for my 2nd entry of the day..I decided to update a bit more. I have moved from Blogger to here becauze I thought I would start a livejournal blog instead. & Since Blogger started to be come popular..i kinda want to be one of the ones outside of the group and go for live journal. :)

Anyways I decided to also make this my Entertainment Drama/Music mixed in with my personal life journal. SO that I dont have to go back and forth deleting this and that..but yeah.

PS I will be updateing from now on DRAMA OF THE WEEK. Where each week I talk about a new/old drama I have seen so far. So Yeah.

Anyays Here my first Drama series of the week.



Drama Series of the Week

 : Love Bond. ft Kenix Kwok , Micheal Tao, Bernice Liu, & Moses Chan.

Characters :

Kenix Kwok as Gei Hoi Sum (Happy)
:: She the eldest of the 3 siblings. She the girl who likes to do things her own way. No matter what it takes. She also a smart girl as well. She opens her own 'Flower Tea' shop to do as her own business and so far it has gone good. She was supposedly opening a coffee shop with her ex-boyfriend in the begining but becauze of the breakup she decided to show her ex-boyfriend what she made of. As for her relationships. she more of a independent woman who will go and do anything to make her partner and her happy. As long as it a stable relationship then she good.

Micheal Tao as Yet Gong. (One Lake) :: He the eldest of the 5 children and his role sorta of the parent. He looks after his siblings and make sure to keep the parents' resolution is to keep the family together and work hard earning money. His goal is to open his own restaurant and make food for his wonderful friends and family. His family owns a flower shop so mostly everything they do is flower related. As for his relationships, it more of an ups and downs. He tries to pleases everyone around him but sometimes things can get out of hand. But the good part of his character is that he a responsible nice and caring young man who willing to look after his friends and family and make sure everyone happy.

Bernice Liu as Gei Mei Lai (Beautiful) : She the 2nd eldest child in the 3 sibling clan. She more of tomboy figure and works for the government. She likes to do daring things and fight. More like a boy lols. but yeah. Her character sometimes more caring too. More like her sister Kenix (Hoi Sum) she more of the upbeat will be there right away type girl. She also likes to do is stick to her sister Kenix. Mainly all I can say is she a tomboy figure (no doubt about it) :)

Moses Chan as Sam Hor (Third River) : He the 3rd eldest in the 5 sibling clan. His charcter is more of a stick to me trust me type of guy. As a child he had been abandoned sorta by his family soon 20 something years later, he meets his eldest brother Yet Gong (Micheal Tao) and both decides to go back to live with the rest of the siblings. (For this is to make his parents wish come true) As for him he sorta on the 'Low Toe' type person when comes to relationships yet you can never get tired of him. He just too sweet in the drama. and his singing soo good. :) I just love him! :) lols. Anyways as I said, his character iis sweet caring and trustable person just like his eldest brother, he willing to do anything for his friends or family. (No doubt about it as well)




 
 
xxitzmeexx
24 January 2010 @ 05:05 pm
Okay I decided to make a personal entry for myself. Yet I wanted to write on paper..but since I got too lazy to I guess Ill do it here.

Anyways here my first entry..

Work : Work been okay. Not much business really. Had to do is just clean everything and practucally do nothing. Since no customers nd business sucked. But yeah.

Dramas : I have to really catch up on some of my dramas. I really gotton the chance to see anything ...and most shows shown today or this year kinda boring..as for the TVB shows I keep watching some reruns of the seris. which kinda boring but heck nothing else to watch. as for every other drama didnt get a chance to see anything cauze nothing to see and didnt really caught my attention... :( but yeah.

All in betwwen things are okay now. Just wating for one of my uncles to return from NY so I can go back ..decided to save up my off days starting next week so I can return to NY and have a decent week off. WOrk just killing me..!!! ~..but yeah.

But anyways not much to write now so I guess Ill leave it here. till nexttime..
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